In October 2023, Kaj Gorgels brought a cute bundle of joy into the world: his son Xavier. But while Kaj is thrilled with his new role as dad, he reveals in the podcast Geuze & Gorgels that fatherhood sometimes surprises him with more challenges than he expected…
Kaj meets himself
“He goes to bed at seven o’clock and not much later you go too, because you know you have to get out four more times during the night. I’ve never lived like that. I’m really finding myself at the moment. Actually, I’m quite struggling with myself,” the presenter shares honestly.
Short circuit
Monica Geuze’s bestie also openly explains that he sometimes gets a ‘short circuit’ when his little friend starts to cry. “Then I really have to keep myself very, very calm. And then every now and then you get a punch in the mouth, because it turns and it moves. ‘Why, why did I want a child?’ I think. I lie Here on the bed, I can barely sleep for the third night. That’s just what you think. Of course you can’t actually say that out loud.”
Guilt
These thoughts cause Gorgels to suffer greatly from feelings of guilt. “Then I think: why did I think that? Imagine that he felt that in the energy or something. Then I go completely in my head: no, I should never think that again. What a bad father I am Why does such a thought even go through your head? That really makes me feel guilty.”
Nine year old joke
Mo and Kaj have feelings a close friendship for forever. Not long ago, old videos of them suddenly surfaced in which they were both still childless and busy thinking of baby names. In the video, Kaj suggests using the name Xavier, after which Monica bursts out laughing. Kaj’s reaction? “This is exactly what I was afraid of.” Kaj re-shared these hilarious images from nine years ago on his TikTok and wrote: “When you see these nine year old images again… And just named your son Xavier. Thank you, friends.” He also quickly sent a message to Monica to reassure her and jokes that these images will never be shown to his son.
